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hey todays been easier than ever because…I’ve got exams coming up next week and so ive been spending all my time either studying or sleeping and while im studying my apetite completely goes and so i got through today eating 500 calories which I’m pleased with. i always seem to lose weight around exam time i dunno whether this is a result of stress or something but always does me good!exercising hasnt been too good today because of my study schedule but im gonna do some sit up and push ups in a mo and some wieght training which should do me over until tomorrow when ill walk to my errands instead of going in the car which will compensate. i tidied my room the other day which gives me a nice environment to live in and i find with a nicer work envirnment i feel happier in myself and dont feel the need to eat.

omg i cannot belive its day 7 already!! i am so so happy with my progress and the nice words from everyone now that ive reached a week theres no turning back. i know it sounds silly but a week is a huge milestone for me, i usualy cave on day 3. i read something yesterday that says it takes 21 days to stop a habit or something like that. so im nearing that goal not eaten anything today yet but going to have something in a moment but im ded happy x

ok im really confused as to what day im on now…?according to the dates on this im now on day 7 which seems a bit unbelievable as day 3 seemed like yesterday!!! anyway just a quickie to say im doing gd and hope to do a [proper entry later on today! c ya1!! x

mannnn today was a struggle. i didnt drink when i was out i thought the calorific content of wine might kill me lol soooo i chose to be the designated driver which helped. what didnt help is when my friends chose to stop by mcdonalds on the way home. this was a struggle but i can safely say i did it! im thinking about setting a goal of running the next local 6mile fun run and the following year the london marathon. i know i can do it if i set my mind to it and there is no way im going back to my old eating habits!!! i wonder if its possible for people to notice a change in a persons weight if they work hard for a month? hmmm…x

ok so its nearing the end of day 3. today food wise ive done okish.ive had pasta and a tracker bar. i wish i could have done better but hey hop its onli nearing the beginning of my change. on the other hand i managed to do a mile and half on the treadmill and some light weight training. i know its not much but everybody has to start somewhere yes? im going out tonight and in the mood for having a drink so i might treat myself as my calorie intake so far today hasnt been HUGE, nowhere near what it used to be. it took me half an hour to do a mile and half. i know thats AWFUL but i was onli at steady walking pace. im hoping to get this significantly down over the next week!! c ya! x

can i just say im so glad i started this change over xmas!!! because at xmas time goes quick cus ure having fun so usuali when im on a weight loss trek the days draaaag by but i cannt believe ive started day 3 alredy!! :O when i wake up the plan is to go in the gym room and lock myself away for an hour. im debating using small weights? will this do me more harm than good? i dont want all my fat in my arms to to turn to hugggge muscle lol. i am actuali starving to deth and to hold out till morning is gonna be really hard but the new rule is to not eat between 7pm and 7am so for now i will suffer in silnce lol its not that bad reali im overreacting haha!! x

so i fell asleep at like 6 cus i hadnt slept well the night before. i reali gotta sort this sleepin pattern out….and now im bored and very very very hungry i might add!!!it feels good tho i crave to feel that hunger feeling when im trying to lose weight it helps me continue. my mum said the oddest thing today…”ure looking slim” i was like…..its onli been a day mum give it chance!! lol straange woman. thats another thing im gonna enjoy…coming home for the odd weekend and having my family shocked by my wieght change. i realy am determined with this last final life style choice x speak tomoz!

just a quickie for now sorry but post later on tho…..ok its day two and i feel FAT!! i didnt stick to anything today. i did no exercise and had pasta and chicken to eat!!!! i know i had nothing ele other than that but still its not what i had planned!!! oh well its not like im gonna gain weight from that or anything!!! and thanks to that kind girl that commented my last post i am feeling even more determined knowing that people had read my blogs thanx guys! x

ok well today is going ok. i passed on the exercise purely because its day one and i wanna see how my eating habits fair first. i have told myself not to be too down heartened at this prospect because there is always tomorrow as far as eating goes ive done good…i have kept all the food in the house to see if i can do it and i have not touched one bit. i have a HUGE cask of wine and have not touched a drop.i am about to have a shower right now but when im done im gonna dress up nice and go to asda for those ice lols. while im there i might pic up some bottles water cus this stuff is mingin fo’sho!!! when i return i will get rid of all the food then have my first two ice lols im unsure wot part of this bit i mentioned in this online thingy because i also have a paper food diary but im sure mixing up stuff will not do any harm it will just make the promise to myself to continue this journey more strong. and the thing that is keeping me going at this moment in time? when my flatmate returns from xmas in a months time and i have hopefuli lost a noticable amount of weight i will feel so good in myself. then after that my motivation will b my friends birthday where i will wear a beautiful dress to show off my new thin legs. then after that my holiday where for the first time in my life i will wear a bikini and  be proud and then finalyy in a years time when i visit my grandparents after not seeing them for a whole year and they see the dramatic change then and only then will it all seem worth while. but most of all i will enjoy going into any shop there is and picking any peice of clothing i want because i wont have to worry about them having my size or whever it will hug a certain part of my body too much because of me being out of proportion!im gonna write a list of all the benifits of losing this extra padding in a mo, maybe not today tho because i will be indulging in ice lols. what bothers m is not weighing myself cus im too scared but i might get a pair of scales and turn the needle wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bk then weigh myself so i can atleast see the progress. or i might just measure my measurements lol we will see. anyway tally ho the shower is waiting! x

so today is the day after boxing day and for me i have decided xmas is definately now over and so the new year diet no long looms……it is here! which i am rather looking forward to tbh with you it might be fun…life changing. and so i have decided….first of all a detox is needed. the plan is a 2 day detox drinking nothing but water and eating very little. last week =my idea of hell…today=sounds good! i have worked out a pretty good route for my walking(about 2/3 miles i think) which i will do at 5am and 8pm. i will go to the gym whenever i have a clue the opening times are so i will get back to you on that one..i do know that i will only go for one hour a day though because anymore would kill me at this moment in time haha!  im hoping this blog will work because for me its going to act as a friend, a buddy that will keep me on track. i am not going to disclose how much a weigh because to be perfectly honest i do not know as the scales scare me BUT i do know that im in the weight loss range of about 5 stone or something to be happi with my body. i also need to sort out my body clock…my sleeping patterns are all messed up at the moment so i MUST go to sleep at 10pm every night and wake at 5am. if not i dunno what ill do because ive herd sorting out sleep can help weight problems significantly. i am not thinking of this as a diet i am thinking of it as a lifestyle choice. and it feels good! happy holidays people! its bye for now but quite frankly im scaring myself with how into this diet thing im getting! its pleasing. x x x